Sadie

sadie


Title: Sadie

Author: Courtney Summers

Series: N/A

Publisher: MacMillan Audio

Release Date: September 4th 2018

Rating:

Five Stars

A missing girl on a journey of revenge. A Serial-like podcast following the clues she’s left behind. And an ending you won’t be able to stop talking about.

Sadie hasn’t had an easy life. Growing up on her own, she’s been raising her sister Mattie in an isolated small town, trying her best to provide a normal life and keep their heads above water.

But when Mattie is found dead, Sadie’s entire world crumbles. After a somewhat botched police investigation, Sadie is determined to bring her sister’s killer to justice and hits the road following a few meagre clues to find him.

When West McCray – a radio personality working on a segment about small, forgotten towns in America – overhears Sadie’s story at a local gas station, he becomes obsessed with finding the missing girl. He starts his own podcast as he tracks Sadie’s journey, trying to figure out what happened, hoping to find her before it’s too late.

Courtney Summers has written the breakout book of her career. Sadie is propulsive and harrowing and will keep you riveted until the last page.

– Blurb courtesy of goodreads.com

My Thoughts On…

…The Plot

“She’s dead,” I whisper and I don’t know why this is the thing I choose to say out loud because it hurts to say it, to feel the truth of those words pass my lips, to have them be real in this world. But she’s dead is the reason I’m still alive.
She’s dead is the reason I’m going to kill a man.

When Sadie’s sister is found dead, and the police give up long before the killer is even identified, Sadie decides to take justice into her own hands. She knows who killed Mattie and when she finds him she plans to kill him for what he did to her baby sister. Months later Sadie is still missing, but when West McCray hears her story, when he speaks to the people in Sadie’s life who were left behind, he starts following her trail hoping to find Sadie at the end of it.

Sadie is told in alternating chapters; we hear clips of West’s podcast as he interviews Sadie’s loved one and follows her trail, stumbling across the same things Sadie discovers as he hopes to find the still-missing girl, mixed with Sadie’s POV as she gets closer and closer to Mattie’s killer. Sadie was the first book I listened to as an audiobook and because of the format this book was written in, with podcast elements mixed into the narrative, it worked really well. The alternating chapters didn’t pull me out of the story but made me want to read faster to find out what would happen to Sadie next when we flipped to West’s podcast, or learn more of Sadie’s backstory when we flipped back to her POV.

“And Sadie, if you’re out there, please let me know. Because I can’t take another dead girl.”

As Sadie travels all over the country, following the small clue she manages to unearth as to where her sister’s killer has fled to, she discovers a much darker secret than what happened to Mattie. Mattie wasn’t the first victim, and if someone doesn’t do something she won’t be the last. As West follows Sadie, stumbling across the same secrets she does, he becomes more involved in her story and more desperate to find her still alive at the end of it, but he’s slowly losing hope that this story will end any differently to that of the other missing girls he’s heard of.

I was hooked on Sadie from the first word until the very end, but it was a very dark story. Trigger warnings for paedophilia, sexual abuse, drugs and murder. Going in you know there won’t be a happy ending to Sadie’s and Mattie’s story and it added a different tone as I was listening to West’s podcast snippets, knowing what he would discover because Sadie had already discovered it.

…The Characters

“I always forget fear is a conquerable thing but I learn it over and over again and that, I guess, is better than never learning it.”

Sadie dedicated her whole life to her younger sister, becoming Mattie’s sister and mother. Ever since their mother left them it’s just been the two of them, and when Mattie is murdered Sadie has no purpose. Tracking down and killing the man who stole Mattie from her is the only thing left for Sadie. Sadie has always been an outsider, she didn’t have a happy life and the stutter she can’t control didn’t help, isolating her from everyone.

As the story unfolds we see Sadie become darker and darker, she realises very quickly how dangerous the people she’s hunting down are but she can’t stop, she’s desperate to finally look Mattie’s killer in the eyes no matter what it costs her. She’s very resourceful and determined, but she’s lonely too; with Mattie gone it’s like there’s no one else connecting her to this world.

“It was a terrible thing, sure, but we live in a world that has no shortage of terrible things. You can’t stop for all of them.”

West had been on the road for a while, and when he first overhears Sadie’s story he dismisses her as one of the many missing girls he hears about in passing. Convinced by her family and by his boss to follow her trail across America West quickly falls down the same dark hole that swallowed Sadie. He fears what he uncovers, he becomes personally involved in Sadie’s and Mattie’s story in a way he hasn’t with any other missing girl and he fears what he’ll find when he reaches the end.

“I stood over her crib and listened to her breathing, watching the rise and fall of her tiny chest. I pressed my palm against it and felt myself through her. She was breathing, alive. And I was too.”

The relationship between Sadie and Mattie is what drove this whole story. Ever since her younger sister was born Sadie has dedicated her life to Mattie, like a lot of younger sisters Mattie never fully appreciated what Sadie did for her but Sadie didn’t care. She did the best for Mattie no matter what it cost her and even after Mattie dies Sadie is still trying; she can’t protect Mattie so she’ll make sure her killer pays. In Sadie we get to see Mattie in two different lights; in Sadie’s eyes she’s the perfect little sister, but through West’s POV we see the flaws Mattie’s character had.


Sadie is a story that had me hooked, and that will stay with me for a very long time especially considering how it ended. It isn’t the kind of book I’d normally pick up, but with all the hype surrounding Sadie I couldn’t resist, and I’m glad I didn’t because this is such a powerful story. Sadie was a character I both loved and mourned for at the same time.

What did you think of Sadie? Was it a favourite of yours or could you just not get into the story? Let me know.

23 thoughts on “Sadie

  1. Wonderful review, Beth, and one I totally agree with! Sadie’s story was so powerful to me, and part of what made is so powerful was seeing how Sadie’s character develops and how her faith from the world lifts totally as she searches for the murderer. It was a book that broke my heart but in the best of ways. I loved the open ending too! I think I’m going to have to re-visit it via audiobook some time soon. 🙂

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    1. Thanks so much Aimal. 🙂 ❤️ Yes this is definitely going to be a story that stays with me for a while, and I also loved how we saw Sadie’s journey from the two perspectives, it kind of highlights how Sadie’s worldview changes even more seeing it through an outsiders eyes as well.
      I feel like the open ending was the only way it could have ended but god did part of me want a happy ending for Sadie you know?

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  2. LKSJDF reading your review made me so sad all over again, POOR SADIE!!!!! I truly need to go back and listen to the audiobook again, because I can’t remember the ending at all. ((((it’s v possible my brain blocked it out in order to comfort me)))))

    But I related to Sadie so much, with her fierce and undying devotion to her little sister above literally everyone else??? SO SELFLESS AND BADASS!!! You’ve summed up her personality and her amazing heart so well in this review, gosh ❤ I also love how you mentioned the book gets darker and darker as it goes along, there’s such a bleak undertone that’s constantly there and it just gets worse.

    I needed to read at least 10 wholesome books after that Sadie, to recover.

    Amazing review as always c: c: c: c:

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    1. I know that ending was just heartbreaking wasn’t it?! Because of the way the book was ordered I thought there’d be another Sadie chapter and I was a little gutted when I realised there wasn’t because I realised what it meant for her! That’s definitely possible, the ending does kind of hit you somewhat doesn’t it?
      The sibling relationship between Sadie and Mattie was incredible, it just made this book more heartbreaking because you know what happened to Mattie. Definitely badass, and yeah I guess given the tone the book takes I guess it’s not that surprising how it ended, still heartbreaking.
      Same here, you need something lighthearted after this!
      Thanks so much. 🙂 ❤️

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  3. So happy you enjoyed this book, Beth ❤
    I love dark, mysterious novels and it sounds like Sadie will be right up my alley. I’ve seen so many people raving about this book and I am curious to read it.

    This is such a lovely review and I am definitely more determined than ever to pick up this book!

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    1. Thanks Michelle. 🙂 ❤️
      It was all the rave reviews I was seeing which led me to Sadie, and it was incredible. If you like dark and mysterious I think you’ll love this one.
      Thanks so much, and I’ll be looking forwards to seeing what you think of Sadie when you’ve finished reading. 🙂 ❤️

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  4. Beautiful review, Beth, I’m so happy to hear this book had such an impact on you and that you enjoyed it so much, it sounds like such a powerful story ❤ I don't think I'll ever read it because of all the dark themes, it is a bit too much for me, but I'm so happy that so many people are loving this 🙂 ❤

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    1. Thanks so much Marie. 🙂 ❤️ It really did, even now months after finishing it I’m still thinking about that ending! Yeah there is a lot in this book that could be triggering, I think if you think it’ll be too dark don’t pick it up (there’s nothing worse than being made uncomfortable by a book you’re supposed to enjoy) but yeah it’s great to see Sadie getting the attention it deserves. 🙂

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  5. I agree about the ending 😭 I was very emotional, but I loved it, too! It was also one of my first audiobooks – and the first audiobook I would say *must* be experienced as such. I thought the audiobook aspect paired perfectly with podcast element of the story.

    Great review!

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    1. I feel like it was inevitable that it would end like that, a happy ending wouldn’t have really fit in with Sadie’s story or her journey. Doesn’t mean I wasn’t still devastated when I reached the end of the audiobook though.
      Definitely, as far as first audiobooks go this was the best choice we both could have made right?
      Thanks so much. 🙂

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